Nobody remembers your failures
If you really are concerned with outside perspective (it’s okay, we all are sometimes) know this: people almost never remember your failures. Really. Think of famous people. Do you know about the times they failed? Not really. You didn’t pay attention to them until they were successful. You don’t remember all of the contests they got 10th place in, or didn’t place in at all. They didn’t get on your radar until they made it. People don’t really pay attention to the failures of others. Success is what catches attention.