My partner has always struggled with anxiety and, since we’ve been together for a long time and are so close, that means that we have both struggled with his anxiety for a long time. I of course understand that he feels it much, much worse than I do. I cannot possibly understand what he experiences. But if you love and live with a partner who has anxiety, it does affect you. You can feel it. When he’s got it bad, it’s like a touchable tension in the home. It rubs off on you. My partner reached a point where he just didn’t want anxiety to rule his life anymore. He also felt bad that it affected me so much, too. So he started taking CBD. And, I’d be lying if I said it was just the perfect solution. It has some side effects that have affected our dynamic.
Mornings are mundane
When my partner first takes his CBD in the morning, it totally numbs him out. He has almost no emotions. Or if he does, he doesn’t show them. He usually gets up about an hour before me each morning and, in the past, when I’d wake up, it’d be a little celebration that we were all up. He’d get up from his work to cuddle me and crack some jokes. Now he just looks up and says, “Oh. Hey” and goes back to work.