Remy Ma and Papoose have a love story that is a little different than the ones you see on the big screen but that doesn’t make it any less beautiful.
And they’re sharing that story in the October issue of Sister2SisterMagazine. She also talks about the ugly side of incarceration, the friends she’s made and now misses, who are still in jail and why she’s trying to keep her circle tight these days.
On missing the friends she made in jail
I miss them so much already. It’s so crazy. I had already been packed because I had expected to leave the day before. So I’m like, “It’s just a couple of things I wanna grab like my Bible and some paperwork and pictures that I took over the last couple of days.” And they just really rushed me out of the whole prison. I caught a glimpse of my friends; they had locked them inside the gym and they were all banging on the doors screaming like, “We love you, we love you, we miss you.” It was a wonderful thing. But I’m probably never gonna see them. So who knows? I spent six and a half years with them. They’re going through all types of situations, but one of my stipulations on my parole is that you cannot contact people that have a criminal history. So it’s like you build these relationships and just, due to the new criteria that I have to follow based on my release, I can’t even contact them or let them know everything’s alright and I miss you guys. But that’s part of the situation.
The day she was convicted
I actually didn’t think that I was going to be convicted. You know how some days are just so traumatizing that you don’t even think about it? I really made myself numb to certain things. I don’t talk about it. I feel like there was some things that were handled crazily on several different people’s parts. But I was sentenced to a certain amount of time in the end, so I don’t want to keep revisiting that. I don’t want anybody feeling any type of way, because there’s a bunch of people that feel like, “Oh, she should’ve went to prison for her whole life,” or, “She should’ve done this, she should’ve done that. I felt that, whatever was given to me, I took it and I went through it. And I went through it not just by myself, but with my loved ones that I really care about. They suffered as well. At this point in my life, I don’t want to prolong the suffering by dwelling on what happened that night. I don’t have ill feelings towards anybody or anything. I’m on such a different page and a different chapter in my life that that book is gone. That book is read and it’s over.
Papoose and his loyalty
That’s right. In a marriage you get a visit 8:30 in the morning until 3:30, Monday through Friday. Then your weekends alternate. And he was there. If you saw my first year, every single day, Monday thru Friday—canceling whatever he had to do for shows and interviews—he was staying in that prison with me from 8:30 in the morning to 3:30. Then we’d stay on the phone until 5 or 5:30 until lock-in. It was crazy looking back at it now because I just had to tell him one time, like, “Yo, you can’t stay here every day with me.” I think he kinda felt, “Well, as long as you’re here, we’re both here.”
Most of the time they split. Initially, I was surprised. But really, if I thought about the type of person that he is, I shouldn’t have ever questioned it. He proved me and everybody else wrong. After that first year or two I was like, “Alright, it’s no need for me to worry anymore; he’s definitely in it for the long run.” And it’s obvious how much he loves me. I never have to question that.
Look for this issue on newsstands soon.