“I Needed My Mom But I Was Too Proud” Jeannie Mai Said She Disowned Her Mother For 8 Years
When I was sixteen, my mom and I, Mama Mai, who you guys know is my ride of die, my best friend, my icon today. She and I had a major falling out because she wasn’t supportive to me when I needed her most at that time.
We disowned each other when I was sixteen. And literally, until I was 24, we avoided each other like the plague. My family would try to trick us and I would come to a party and she would be there, when I tell you, the “Love and Hip Hop” scene is nothing compared to what was happening between me and my mom, like throwing things at each other, the cursing, the words.
And then—this is honestly why I’m so devoted to God today. Because I didn’t know it, but there’s something there in that spirit between a mother and daughter. And I needed my mom but I was too proud to invite her back, especially when she did me wrong.
So I prayed, not knowing I was praying to God and some things happened. It’s a long story. But I remember confronting her again and facing off with her with what she had done wrong and yo I tell you, the way God replaced my ears with His and my heart with His, to hear everything she had told me in the past but I heard it differently, I heard it the way He wants you to hear, the mistakes you make as a human being.
Not only did I make up with my mom on that day and completely gave up on that hatred that we had after eight years and I also looked at God and was like, ‘Damn, I owe you one.’ So that’s why I’m stuck being a Christian now.
Anyway, I’m so thankful for that. So for anybody out there, forgive because you should do it for yourself and you’ll see the love grow from that and it’ll be something that’ll bless you for the rest of your life.
You can watch Jeannie speak about her experience in the video below.