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Over the weekend, we reported that Conrad Murray claimed, once again, that he didn’t kill Michael Jackson, that Michael accidentally killed himself. Murray has been saying this for years now. But this particular interview with The Mail, Murray had faaaaaar more than that to say. In the lengthy interview, Murray attempts to “clear” his name by describing the friendship he and Michael shared. And because the two were so close for the icon’s final years and Michael trusted him, he was privy to some of the most intimate details of Jackson’s life. And I do mean in-tim-ate. This interview answers many of the questions we’ve had about Michael Jackson for decades now, including why he was so adamant about bleaching his skin, the biology of his children, his sexuality and the abuse Jackson had suffered at the hands of his family and others he had once trusted. You can check out some of the highlights below.
Michael’s drug use
Murray says that when he initially went to work for Michael in 2006, he was already using propofol. When he came to his home to help him prepare for his comeback tour, he realized that Michael had a personal stash of the drug which Murray did not supply.
He told me there were doctors in Germany that gave it to him. I didn’t agree with this at all, but Michael wasn’t the kind of man you can say no to. He would always find a way.
So I acquired propofol and gave it to him over a two-and-a-half month period as I weaned him off it, which I finally achieved three days before he died.
I would never have recommended propofol to Michael.
But when I got there he was on it – he called it “milk” – and he needed to get off it. I wanted to help my friend.
How he and Michael were able to develop such a close friendship.
He liked me because I wasn’t starstruck. The children loved me. We shared similar backgrounds.
He had a very unhappy childhood and was beaten and abused by his father. I came from poverty and didn’t meet my father until I was 25. We were both forgotten little boys.
Michael had a lot of lingering pain. He would sing the song The Little Boy Who Santa Claus Forgot to me and say, ‘That’s our song.’
I protected him. I am only speaking now because I have been unfairly vilified.
He told me he believed he had been sexually assaulted by one doctor while he had been under sedation. You name it, he had experienced it.
The prediction Michael made that came true in a very tragic way.
You know, for the rest of your life and my life our names will become inseparable.
I asked him, “Michael, what do you mean?” and he smiled and said, I am clairvoyant.
Skin bleaching
Murray said Michael craved porcelain skin and he helped apply the cream he used. He rubbed it on Jackson’s back.
He transformed himself because he wanted to obscure where he came from. He wanted to look different from his family. He wanted porcelain, flawless skin. Those were his words.
More quotes about Michael’s children, his sexuality and the plastic nose on the following pages.
The kids
Dr. Murray says that he and Michael spoke extensively about his children and who their real fathers are.
None of them are Michael’s biological children. Michael told me he never slept with Debbie Rowe [the biological mother of Prince and Paris]. We joked that neither of us would want to have sex with her.
He chose friends or business colleagues to help him. He told me he wanted to sever any genetic link to his family.
I will not talk about this. If the children want to know, I will tell them.
There are some secrets I will take to my grave.
His sexuality
The interviewer asked Murray whether or not he could speak on Michael being gay or interested in children.
I can’t tell you everything. What I will say is that he and I would look at girly magazines.
He liked skinny brunettes. He told me his whole life gay men had tried it on with him.
He was uncomfortable with a lot of it. He said it was part of being in showbusiness.
I don’t think he was homophobic but I know he’d had some terrible experiences.
He told me he felt safe being around me.
He knew I wouldn’t try anything.
His nose and eyes
Michael had a prosthetic piece of plastic which he taped to his nose. I would help him tape it down. We had no secrets.
He also used huge thick magnifying glasses to read and would buy those cheap reading glasses you get at the chemist.
I was worried about him and booked an eye exam for him. He never went.
I said, “Michael, you have to get your eyes examined. I don’t want you falling off stage in England.
Most nights I would sit by his bed and read to him. He loved travel magazines and medical journals.
His health issues
Michael never had anyone who cared for him. I asked him why he always wore socks. He showed me his feet. They were terrible. Fungus had penetrated into the skin. He had calluses that went all the way to the bone. He was in agonising pain.
He wore dark trousers all the time because after he went to the toilet he would drip for hours.
You want to know how close Michael and I were? I held his private part every night. I had to put a condom catheter on him because Michael dripped urine. He had a loss of sensation and was incontinent.
Michael didn’t know how to put a condom on, so I had to do it for him.
His room smelled terrible. I told him, “Michael you can’t live this way, we have to get the maids in to clean the bedding. Reluctantly, he agreed.
It was the most intimate thing but he trusted me. I was a doctor, so that sort of thing didn’t bother me.
His relationship with his family
Michael told me that Liz Taylor was more of a mother to him than Katherine ever was.
His father Joe Jackson was one of the destroyers of Michael, and Michael told me his mother was an enabler.
The Jacksons only ever wanted money from him. Three weeks before Michael died, Joe turned up at the house and was pummelling on the gate wanting Michael to sign an agreement for a pay-per-view television show for the Return Of The Jackson 5.
Michael said to me, “I’m not in the Jackson 5. That’s a thing of the past. I don’t want to be a bank for my family any longer.
Whoa! That was a lot. A whole lot. It’s all very sad really. Many of us knew that Michael was troubled but I had no idea he had suffered this much. And while I don’t know that I would expose some of my friend’s most intimate secrets, I understand the pressure Murray feels to clear his name and honestly, I’m inclined to believe him. It makes a lot of sense to me. I obviously can’t say how Michael would feel about Murray speaking so openly about his life but a part of me thinks Michael would understand him exposing some things because of the way people, including the Jackson family, have villainized him since Jackson’s death.
What do you think about Murray’s comments? Do you believe him?
