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On this week’s episode of “Hollywood Divas,” Countess Vaughn revealed the extent of what she had been through in the past that while trying to make it in Hollywood. During a therapy session, Vaughn stated that she found herself pregnant around the age of 18 when she was beginning work on “The Parkers.” While Vaughn shined on “Moesha,” “The Parkers” was to be something she would star in, front and center, and that was a big deal for her. She worried that if she went through with the pregnancy, she was going to lose her big opportunity. With that in mind, she revealed that she decided to abort the baby.

“They didn’t want to see a pregnant girl up there on TV…I knew it wasn’t a good look. I had to do something about it. I had to make a decision to get rid of the child for my career because I knew from the jump that if I let any of them know what was going on, they would have cancelled my show.”

Vaughn spoke about this time in her life a bit further on the post-show blog:

I don’t know if Hollywood has changed. When I was young, we didn’t have shows like “16 and Pregnant,” we didn’t have anything saying “yes, you can be a mother and successful.” My role models were Janet Jackson and Halle Berry who didn’t want marriage to ruin their careers. Really, I was forced by fear. The fear of wanting to do the right thing or what I thought was the right thing at the time. My maturity wasn’t there. The way I handled the situation showed that by not talking to anyone and taking matters in my own hands that I just wasn’t ready. But having a show and having money doesn’t make you ready to be a parent, either.

Vaughn also talked about dealing with other tough times in Hollywood, including being made fun of as a child star during her stint on “227.” Unfortunately, the taunts, which were done behind her back, came from an elder adult who worked on the show:

Being a child on the set, I was bored running, through the hallways and I heard a conversation I shouldn’t have heard. I kept that conversation in the back of my mind, like “is that what people really think at the end of the day.” Especially at that age, it was traumatic. To have someone smile in your face and later . . . especially being an elder who had those views of me. But I kept it to myself.

Now, I’m trying to get away from victimhood. I want to shed the energy — to get over it. I really wanted this therapy regardless if it was on TV or not, it didn’t matter. I want to be a better person and this was an opportunity to knock my thoughts off someone else. I’m not a victim, I love myself.

She told Us Weekly that while it was hard to reveal all these things, she needed to release it all:

“I really needed it to release all that I’ve been carrying all this time. I’ve beat myself up for so long about it, and I just felt like, ‘You know what girl, you’ve got to tell somebody.’ Even though the world will know, hey, that’s just me. I like to keep it real at all times. While it was being shot, I really didn’t notice the cameras being there. I was really there for help.”

Vaughn is a mother of two children: Sasha, 5, and Jaylyn, 11.  You can check out Vaughn’s therapy session for yourself, and share your thoughts below:

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