Chris Brown Tells His Side Of Things On Relationship With Rihanna: “She Would Hit Me, I Would Hit Her”
Since it happened in 2009, we’ve heard a lot over the years about the domestic violence incident between Chris Brown and Rihanna. We’ve heard her speak on the assault more than once. We’ve heard him apologize for it more than once. But what we haven’t really heard much about is their relationship before the violent attack.
In a new documentary that he’s behind called Chris Brown: Welcome To My Life, the 28-year-old speaks in depth about their relationship, how it started, the highs, as well as the violent lows and how it all fell apart.
“Through passing we would be on the same shows,” he said of their early beginnings. “She would always perform and then go sit in the crowd. She watched my shows so I was nervous. ‘Do she like me?’ I didn’t know if she liked me or not. But I was like, ‘She’s really watching the shows so she actually must like my music.’ So from there we became friends, kick it. Nothing too serious, but we just had a good understanding of each other.”
They would go on to have a pretty intense relationship, not only in moving fast emotionally, but according to Brown, in terms of physical altercations. Things took an especially sour note in their relationship when Brown, feeling like he wanted to be honest with Rihanna as their relationship progressed and were in love, admitted that he slept with a former employee before they dated. The singer had previously lied and said he wasn’t involved with the woman.
“My trust totally was lost with her,” he said. “She hated me after that. I tried everything, she didn’t care. She just didn’t trust me after that. From there, it just went downhill because there would be fights, verbal fights, physical fights as well. Mutual sides. This is the first time I get to say anything. Like I said, I still love Rihanna, but I’m just going to be honest. We would fight each other. She would hit me, I would hit her and it never was OK. There was always a point to where we’d talk about it like, ‘What the f–k are we doing? Like, I don’t like you slapping me.’ If I go on stage I got a scratch on my face and I gotta explain it like, ‘Oh, no I fell.’ If you got a scar or a bruise you gotta put makeup on. I felt like s–t. I’m not ever trying to put my hands on any female. Me, I felt like a f–king monster.”
But those feelings didn’t stop things from escalating the night of Clive Davis’s pre-Grammys event in 2009. After the former employee surprisingly showed up at the party, things came to a head. After drinking at the party, the couple argued about the woman’s presence on their way home and when Rihanna found a recent message from her in Brown’s phone, the infamous incident happened.
“She starts going off, she throws the phone,” he said. “‘I hate you.’ Starts hitting me. We’re in a little Lamborghini. She’s fighting me and I’m like, ‘Look, I’m telling you the truth. I swear to God I’m telling you the truth. Stop it.’ She hits me a couple of more times and it doesn’t go from translation to ‘Let’s sit down, I’m telling you the truth.’ It goes to, ‘Now, I’m going to be mean, be evil.'”
He wasn’t kidding.
“I remember she tried to kick me, her just being upset. But then I really hit her, with a closed fist, I punched her,” he said. “I busted her lip. When I saw it, I was in shock. I was like, ‘F–k, why the hell did I hit her?’ From there she just spit in my face. Spit blood in my face and it enraged me even more. It’s a real-on fight in a car.”
Brown admitted that things went beyond too far, with the star eventually biting and pushing her head against the window.
“It’s just a petty, stupid fight and I’m just realizing it like, ‘What the hell am I doing?'” he said. “‘You honestly doing this in a car right now? What are we doing?'”
While his actions over the years may not prove that Brown truly got help and is a changed person in terms of his temper, incidents of violence and treatment of women, looking back on the incident that changed he and Rihanna’s lives (as well as the remaining police picture of the aftermath), he says it still haunts him.
“I look back at that picture and I’m just like, yo bro, that’s not me, bro. That’s not me,” Brown said. “I hate it, to this day. That’s going to haunt me forever.”
Check out his recollection of events in this clip from Chris Brown: Welcome To My Life below: