Live from the sunken place, Lamar Odom is “breaking his silence” on the demise of his relationship with Khloe Kardashian, not to mention his own body as a result of his drug habit.
Its been 17 months since the former Lakers player was found unconscious at the Love Ranch brothel in Nevada, and when asked if he’s clean now after completing a stay at San Diego’s Casa Palmera rehab center in January, the 37 year old says “of course.”
That’s a question Us Weekly asked Odom in their cover profile which delves deeply into his marriage to Khloe Kardashian from 2009 to 2015, though they split in 2011, two years before she filed for divorce. And while it would be logical to think cocaine abuse would be what the former pro baller regrets most during his marriage — or perhaps even abandoning the children he had with first wife Liza Morales, Omar says it’s actually his inability keep his d–ck in his pants that he’s most ashamed of.
Asked whether he regrets sharing his marriage on TV, he says, “Businesswise, it opened up opportunities, like the fragrance Khloé and I created. We probably cursed it by calling it Unbreakable, but that was my baby. It also opened this gate up with other women who probably wouldn’t have been interested in me.
“When I became Khloé Kardashian’s man and on TV, it made me look more enticing. People who didn’t even know basketball would approach me because they knew Lammy…B=tches and THOTs came out of the woodwork. If there is one thing I regret when I was married, it was having multiple affairs with different women. That wasn’t the stand-up thing to do. I wish I could have kept my d–k in my pants.”
I’d argue doing coke out in the open wasn’t a stand-up thing to do either, but that’s exactly the point Odom’s addiction got to once Khloe caught him abusing in 2009.
“I was hiding it for a while, but then I got frustrated and was like, f–k it. Around two years before we split up, I was in the man cave she had made for me and she caught me,” he confesses. “She was disappointed. So was I. The sad thing about it is, I don’t know if I was disappointed because I was actually doing the drug or because she caught me. She knew I was doing cocaine the whole time after that. It was my drug of choice. I’m not going to say she accepted it because that would be the wrong word. Tolerated would be a better word.”
Odom goes on to explain his life was “all about drugs” once Khloe filed for divorce in 2013 and he moved into an apartment in LA. “I wasn’t trying to repair my marriage; I was just trying to get high. My life was all about drugs at that point. It probably helped the end of my career come along a little faster because drugs killed my drive to want to train and be in shape. It killed that and my sex drive. The only time you can f–k is when you take coke.”
Interestingly, despite making that declaration, Odom maintains that he wasn’t high the night he was found unconscious at the brothel. “I was home by myself. Bored. I wanted to get out and have a good time. Looking back, I might have had a drink to get the mood started, but was I drunk or on drugs? Not at all,” he says. “I remember lying in bed. Two women were in bed and then I fell asleep. That’s all. When I woke up four days later, I was trying to pull the tubes out of my mouth.”
Thankfully, those days are now far behind Odom, who calls himself a “walking miracle.” And that’s thanks to his daughter who gave him an ultimatum about going to rehab. Now, the father says, “Living sober, meaning no drugs, is a great feeling.”
Check out his whole interview on US Weekly.