“I Refuse To Be A Victim”: Kehlani Opens Up About Suicide Attempt And Practicing Self-Care
At the top of 2016, singer Kehlani Parrish officially started a relationship with Cleveland Cavaliers point guard Kyrie Irving. And while they looked pretty cute and cozy on social media, by March, it was alleged that she was stepping out on Irving. These rumors surfaced after the singer’s ex, PartyNextDoor, posted a picture of her in his bed on social media. After being hit with a flood of criticism online that she tried to counter (by stating that she and Irving had broken up before that photo was posted), Kehlani became overwhelmed by the attacks and reportedly attempted suicide.
Months later, the 21-year-old singer is able to talk openly about the situation and answer questions about what really led to that dangerous decision, and how she takes care of her mental health now.
As she noted via a tattoo on her neck that says “lost and found” in Spanish, she was struggling to find her way leading up to her suicide attempt.
“I think I more so lived, and have felt myself be very lost and was obviously very lost,” she said of the tattoo in an interview with Power 106 FM’s The Cruz Show. “I think it’s more of a reminder that if I do get lost again, I can always find myself.”
When speaking on self-care, the singer said she monitors her own mental health by allowing herself to feel whatever things come over her instead of trying to push negative thoughts away.
“I think it’s a day by day thing. You take it as it comes and you act accordingly,” she said. “You don’t go hard on yourself and you don’t beat yourself up for whatever you’re feeling and you allow yourself to feel 100 percent of whatever it is.”
She acknowledges that it wasn’t one thing in particular that drove her to attempt suicide. It was more so the straw that broke the camel’s back after quite a few struggles. But after such a traumatizing experience, which included the singer deleting her social media for a bit to regain peace of mind, Kehlani told The Cruz Show that the situation did make her much stronger.
“I’m strong enough to, thank God, be able to talk about it in a positive way,” she said. “To be able to push forward in an inspirational way and not dragging it on or making it a victimizing type situation. I wasn’t a victim, you know what I mean? I’m never a victim. I refuse to be a victim. I’m not. I think it really was a combination of things. It was one, the response was insane. Two, I think people forgot that I was a 21-year-old going through the biggest heartbreak of my life. So on top of it being a very public, scary thing with that, it was ‘I’m hurting, ya’ll. I’m going through heartbreak.’ This is a young woman who is dealing with a guy. On top of all that, it was that. It was really recovering from so many things at once. It was tough. It’s still tough…But also, on the flip side, it’s not too much that can hurt me now.”