The Importance Of Starving Negative Relationship Patterns And Feeding Positive Ones In 2014
Watching the mess that Ms. Joyce was making of her own daughter’s life on The Real Housewives of Atlanta AND the way in which Kandi cowered instead of putting her mother in her place makes me wonder how many of us deal or have dealt with the same type of issue. Even watching poor Tahiry cut off the ever-manipulative Joe Budden (but not really) on Love and Hip Hop New York reminds me of the fact that many of us at different points in our lives have suffered way more at the hands of meddlesome, untrustworthy, harmful relationships than we’ve ever needed to. It makes me wonder how many of us would inadvertently and purposely carry these same poor relationship patterns into the new year. In the past I have felt the sting of tears in my eyes after discovering that friends really could not be happy for me, no matter what good things came my way. I’ve endured countless talks with friends about why this man or that man I was interested in was no good for me when, in reality, some of these men were great catches. I mean GREAT. I’ve also battled with letting go of romantic relationships that clearly were dragging me down and not lifting me up.
Reflecting on my default of putting up with such toxicity in relationships has made me wonder, why did I do it? What am I trying to accomplish by allowing sisters or friends or boyfriends or my mother to infuse my life with negativity? Why do I feel I must endure it?
Loyalty? Respect? How much loyalty is a significant other showing me when they cheat or treat me unfairly? How much loyalty is a friend showing me by deciding to hate every good thing that happens in my life? How much respect is a sister or mother showing me when they meddle so terribly in my personal affairs and destroy my relationships?
Shouldn’t loyalty and respect be reciprocated? Shouldn’t I have enough respect for and loyalty to myself to check the people in my life when they are behaving negatively towards me? Loyalty to someone doesn’t mean that I silently take abuse or ill-treatment. Respect doesn’t mean that I must go along with everything someone says or does.
With the new year here, I have a new resolve to feed the positive aspects of my relationships and to starve the negative. This includes loving those who pour affection and encouragement into my life and setting specific and fortified boundaries with those who drain and exhaust me. I have accepted that this does not mean I love or appreciate any one person over another. It simply means I choose to live my best life. Living my best life is only possible when I take responsibility in and for my relationships.
I’m taking self-love and self-care into the new year with me. What doesn’t elevate, needs to be stopped. What doesn’t promote growth and happiness will not be a part of my 2014. I deserve to be as stress-free as possible. I deserve to enjoy life and to be surrounded by those who genuinely enjoy it as well. I have a say in how I’ll be treated. I have a say in how my new year will progress. And I say, positivity over everything.