Lamar Odom Regrets Cheating On Ex-Wife Khloe Kardashian: “I Couldn’t Keep My D*ck In My Pants Or The Coke Out Of My Nose”
Former Laker star Lamar Odom disappeared from the spotlight since his near brush with death in a Las Vegas brothel in 2015. His heavy drug and alcohol use landed him in a coma, and his estranged wife at the time, Khloe Kardashian, stayed by his side while he struggled to survive.
Now the retired athlete is opening up about his cocaine addiction and cheating throughout his four year marriage to Khloe.
In his new book, “Darkness To Light” Odom said that a “lethal cocktail of the spotlight, addiction, a diminishing career and infidelity,” led to his near death experience.
He said that after he married Khloe in 2009, he was the happiest he had ever been. But the harsh scrutiny of fame led him back to dangerous habits.
“For a while, being with her was bliss and I was the happiest I’ve ever been,” Odom wrote. “We were one of the most famous couples in Hollywood and we made more money together than we had individually.”
But there were clear downsides to this level of attention.
“Oh, did I mention the paranoia, anxiety, depression,” Odom wrote in his book, according to People.
“I couldn’t keep my d— in my pants or the coke out of my nose,” he wrote about his spiral downhill.
Adding, “Drug addicts are incredibly skilled at hiding their habit. I’d get defensive and Khloé would just drop it.”
But now the father of three looks back on his decisions with regret.
“I wish I could have been more of a man,” Odom, 39, told People. “It still bothers me to this day. But regret is something we have to learn to live with.”
Now Odom is looking to put the past behind him, as a he starts a new life with hopes of a least one day being friends with Khloe & her family.
“I hope we can be friends,” Odom said of his ex-wife. “I miss the family. And I hope we can all be reacquainted one day.”