In recent years, my PMS has taken an odd turn. I had the luxury of having almost no PMS symptoms for several years. If it weren’t for the bleeding, I wouldn’t even know I was on my period. And even the bleeding only lasted for a couple of days. When I was much younger, I had terrible cramps. They were so bad that I would become dizzy and faint. Those were terrible years and I went to several specialists to see if we could fix it. Ultimately, they were able to diagnose me with a condition you can’t really cure. It was basically just really bad PMS. Gee. Thanks. Luckily, it went away, and I thought my years of severe PMS were behind me. If anything, I couldn’t imagine PMS ever being any worse than it was with those debilitating cramps. But then, this new, fresh hell began: I now have emotional symptoms. It turns out that those are the worst. Physical pain can be mostly treated with medication. But not being able to trust your own thoughts is its own misery. If you’re like me, then you know that PMS-onset depression can cause these thoughts.
The spark in my relationship is gone
I feel so disconnected from everyone that I’ll look over at my partner and feel…nothing. I think, “Well the spark is obviously dead here and never coming back. We’re just roommates! The honeymoon is over.” But then my period ends and all my lovey feelings come back for my man because my emotions recover in general.