Serena Williams has been very open about the physical ordeal she went through to bring daughter Alexis Olympia into the world last September. But when it comes to the emotional trials, she hasn’t had the chance to be as honest about how hard it has been for her — until now.
The 36-year-old tennis ace is the cover star for Harper’s Bazaar UK‘s newest issue, and in it, she talked about the fact that she has gone through some ups and downs with postpartum depression. From time to time, the simplest mix-ups and parenting problems could leave a woman, known for her strength, feeling like a failure.
“Honestly, sometimes I still think I have to deal with it,” she said. “I think people need to talk about it more because it’s almost like the fourth trimester, it’s part of the pregnancy. I remember one day, I couldn’t find Olympia’s bottle and I got so upset I started crying… because I wanted to be perfect for her.”
When asked if she felt that she was a good mom, as opposed to the “perfect” one, Williams said “I do.”
“I hope I am,” she said, “and I’m going to strive to be the best mom I can be.”
Despite the ups and downs of motherhood, the greatest tennis player of all time looks forward to having more children.
“If I wasn’t playing tennis, I’d be pregnant right now – sorry, I’m one of those women,” she said. “I’ve been injured so many times, and played on it, my body is used to adjusting.”
But for now, she’s focused on having her priorities in order so that she can be present for her daughter.
“It’s definitely family before tennis for me,” she said. “When I’m training, I have to be done at 1 p.m., because I’ve got to be with Olympia. I haven’t gone a day without seeing her.”
As for her desires when it comes to parenthood in the future, Williams wants to have another girl. That’s not a great shock considering that she is the youngest of mom Oracene’s five daughters and has grown up around so many women. She would like the same for baby Alexis Olympia.
“I told Alexis, I hope it’s another girl,” she said. “Olympia needs a little sister, and then we can have a boy. I’ve only been around girls my whole life.”