“It’s A Scary Thing”: Eve Opens Up Struggles With “Horrible” Anxiety Disorder
If you tell someone you’re dealing with anxiety issues, they’ll likely assume your concerns are normal. You’re feeling worried and overwhelmed at times, and who hasn’t been there?
But there’s a difference between being filled with anxiety and actually having anxiety disorder. The latter involves feelings of worry, but can also include fear, panic attacks, phobias and social anxiety, enough so that it interferes with your ability to go about your normal routine.
While speaking about reality star Kendall Jenner‘s admitted issues with anxiety on The Talk, co-host Eve revealed her own battles with the disorder. Things were so rough early on in her career in the music industry that she had to take medication to deal with it all.
“For me with anxiety, fame is one of those things, it comes with being in the public light. But it’s really hard, and it can be very hard and nobody can teach you about that,” she said. “When I first started in the business I had horrible anxiety attacks, so much so that I was on medication. Only people that know me closely know this and it took a lot of years for me to get over it. You know, when you’re hot and you’re popular, you never want to stop because you’re scared if you stop for one second everybody’s going to forget about you, so you work yourself crazy. Your management works you crazy. Your friends, your family, people change. They tell you that you’ve changed and you take that stuff to heart. It took me probably a year for me to get over my anxiety. It was a hard thing. It’s a scary thing.”
The 39-year-old said it became especially scary when she found herself howling in tears in a hotel room while on tour. She only had a few dates left, but Eve was so overwrought with anxiety and emotional exhaustion that she asked to cancel her remaining performances.
“For me, at that time I was actually on a tour. I will never forget this. I was in a hotel room and I got up to go to the bathroom. I heard this noise and it was me crying,” she said. “It was a sound I had never heard from myself and I was balling, crying and I called my manager and was like, ‘I can not finish this tour. I don’t know what’s wrong with me but I’m not happy. I just want to be happy.’ I wasn’t happy, and you have all this stuff! I was exhausted. I was exhausted, but also, my friends were also like, ‘You’ve changed.’ There was so much coming at me and I was trying to do so many things. Thankfully, my manager at the time though was like,’You know what? I’m with you. Let’s pray.’ We prayed in the hotel room and he got me off the tour without being sued, which was great [laughs]. He was a really good manager.”
She has since been able to manage the disorder. Eve said that when she left the tour she went to see a doctor and “thankfully had some really good people that helped me and told me what to do.”