I am 24 years old I’m married with 2 kids. My story may be a little different from most because I married the person that caused me mental, physical abuse and emotion pain for 5 out of 7 years we’ve been together. He has changed in many ways. He no longer cheats, lie, or causes any harm or pain to me. He tells me that he is sorry for the things he has put me through. I tell him that I forgive him but I’m not so sure if I honestly do. The last time he moved out my house to be with another women It’s like something cut off for me I became numb. And it won’t cut back on. I’m constantly on guard. When we argue nothing affects me emotionally. I’m like a robot. But this robot has become apart of me. I’m a completely different person. its tearing our marriage apart but i don’t know how to fix it, not so sure I want to. Can a relationship be so damaged that its not able to recover?

I like the vision board… I’ve been doing this, seeing good things for my self now & in near future…and wow, I’m going to Europe on business at end of month (I’ve never been to Europe).  I started working out every morning before work last March – to keep my balance and not get depressed from abuse I was getting from man I loved.  He kept cheating and lying and I took a lot of other abuse from him…. I was giving it time & hoping he would be a good man and love me.   But I ended it 4 weeks ago – with complete No Contact.. I am forgetting him and all the horrible drama.  I’m keeping busy and putting emphasis back to me, and I pray to God and the Sunday Gospels help me to take the higher road.    This is a Tuff, Rough journey, and I am not looking back.  You can Google: Baggage Reclaim, and it really empowers women to get out & get over bad relationships.. actually some men get solace on that site too.   To every one suffering a bad relationship right now, I hope Peace for you.