Such A Tragedy: Rapper Freddy E Believed To Have Committed Suicide Over His Ex-Girlfriend

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January 7, 2013 ‐ By Jazmine Denise Rogers
Source: Twitter

Source: Twitter

The Hip Hop world was shaken when news broke that 22-year-old rapper Frederick Eugene Buhl aka Freddy E died as a result of a self-inflicted gunshot wound on Saturday. While facts concerning what led to the rapper’s decision to take his life are unknown, many Twitter users suggest that his fragile emotional state was partially linked to issues surrounding his ex-girlfriend, fellow rapper, Honey C*caine. Just before taking his life, Freddy released several chilling tweets that forewarned his suicide.

“Smoked my first pack of cigarettes today… been a long time since I’ve gone through heart break. It’s a cold unforgiving world if I do say.”

“It’s all bad y’all…”

“If there’s a God then He’s calling me back home. This barrel never felt so good next to my dome. It’s cold & I’d rather die than live alone.”

“It’s… all… bad… y’all. *puts finger around trigger*”

“I love you Mom.”

“I love you Dad.”

“I love you Katherine.”

“God… please forgive me.”

The tweets are said to have come shortly after his ex-girlfriend shared via her Twitter page that she was single; however she has since come forth using her Twitter account to deny having anything to do with his death.

“To say I caused what happened is ignorance.. You know nothing about our friendship or the story, hate me if you feel.. We loved eachother..”

“Say it’s my fault, threaten me, whatever.. I knew him well enough to know he had other things happening.. I was there for him all the time.”

Both Honey and Freddy are affiliated with YMCMB rapper Tyga. While speculations can never truly confirm whether or not Freddy E’s failed relationship was the direct cause of his suicide, I believe we all can agree that it is unfortunate that whatever this young man was going through, he felt it to be overwhelming enough to take his own life.

Freddy was extremely popular for his spoken-word pieces and comedic skits, which he frequently shared on his YouTube channel, JERKTV. He is remembered by his family as being “a talented, sensitive, and brilliant young man”.

Our prayers and condolences go out to the Buhl family.

Jazmine Denise is a news writer for Madame Noire. Follow her on Twitter @jazminedenise

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  • scandalous7

    Damn , very sad.

  • Chassie

    R.I.P. Freddy E., your youtube channel always made me smile, I’m sorry there wasn’t enough in this world to make you smile too but i hope you are in peace

  • Kitsy

    I think it is deplorable that people are blaming this girl. No matter what went down between them, people who commit suicide do it for their own reasons. It’s something within themselves that drives them to it, usually mental illness.

  • &.

    It makes me sad that he decided to take his life instead of talk to someone about his issues or even cry about it. I think there needs to be more safe places people can go to to discuss their problems and gain support and coping mechanisms to solve their problems that are free of judgement. So that they know they are not alone though they feel that way.
    Sometimes you don’t want to go to your family or people you know to discuss dark feelings so people can decide to hold it all in until they feel like they can’t take the burden on their shoulders anymore, pain at any capacity depending on who you are can be unbearable to go through alone. Which could have been something he felt.
    I think guys should cry more and get their feelings out. They are human after all.

    • Kaori

      Why do you assume he didn’t cry or talk about it?

      • &.

        you know he could have done just that. i don’t know his situation, i didn’t mean to assume anything, my general point was that there needs to be places people can go to in order to discuss their issues free of judgement and these places need to be made aware because the pain can be unbearable for some ( similar to AA support groups).

        also, people need to pay attention to changes they see occur within a person close to them that wants to do this. there are always signs, they may differ from person to person, but the signs are there.

        I also know that some guys feel that crying makes them weak and its a man’s job to handle his burdens, no help needed. regarding the men crying = weakness in this society’s stigma. i just feel that men should be allowed to cry more and get there feelings out. again, i’m not trying to assume anything about him.

  • Sagittarius81

    This is so sad that this young man ended his life like that. I betcha mental illness had more to do with his suicide than some female. No man or woman isn’t worth killing yourself over. My prayers goes out to his family.

  • jjac401

    I feel for this young man. His family and friends are in my prayers.

  • Live_in_LDN

    FFS no sane man kills themself over a girl. This man was obviously suffering from an mental illness and if it wasn’t his girlfriend, it would have been spilt milk that caused him to commit suicide. Too many black people suffer in silence when it comes to mental illness because there are a lot of black folks who believe it to be a white person’s disease or think all the suffer needs is ‘jesus’ and they’d be ok.

    A saw this same story on another black blog and 90% of comments were ‘he needs jesus and prayer’. This is why the black community stays losing. If someone broke their back you wouldn’t tell them to prayer as the only solutinon, NO you would take their arse to a medical professional. A ‘broken’ mind should be no different.

    • Na Na

      Good point. SOME Black people do fall into the Jesus complex as if they don’t have to take any actual steps to rectify the situation they just gona wait on Jesus. And you before you condemn me to hell remember your word says faith without works is dead…so yes you have to do more than just wait on Jesus.

      • Na Na

        @65c65ea565432b854229a5a70c2f0e3d:disqus I wasn’t speaking to you directly, I meant anyone who will comment after us.

      • http://twitter.com/@Mz_Undrstd Miss_Understood

        Generally, the public does not understand how therapy works. I am a therapist and I will pray with you in sessions, MOST will, even if they don’t necessarily believe in the same thing, they will incorporate your religious beliefs into the sessions because whatever gives you solace is sought

      • Kaori

        How about not waiting on ‘Jesus’ at all!

      • fannie

        I agree with you and I’m a Christian. The Bible says faith without works is pointless.

    • guest

      You’re right my daughter was diagnosed paranoid schizophrenic at age 17. I didn’t know what was happening right before my eyes. The hardest thing I ever had to do was have her committed to the hospital and leave her by herself but it was for the best. The stigma attached to mental illness is what makes people not want to seek help. They don’t want to be perceived as being crazy so the let it go. I have heard people even say to someone mentally ill snap out of it. I’f only it was that easy it a battle everyday but if you stay on your meds and have a good family support you can make.

    • http://twitter.com/@Mz_Undrstd Miss_Understood

      Very true…on MN’s evil brother blog most of the commenters were calling him “weak” and a “coward”-it is so embarrassing because had he popped pills, drank, smoked weed and had sëx with hundreds of groupies to deal with his pain, he would have been “normal”…sadly in many minority communities there is less stigma attached to being an addict than having mental illness…

      • Kitsy

        “…had he popped pills, drank, smoked weed and had sëx with hundreds of groupies to deal with his pain, he would have been ‘normal’”

        I want to give you a standing ovation for this because few people recognize these behaviors as indicative of depression. We just think they’re signs of someone having too much fun, or just recklessness or immaturity, but they can also be coping mechanisms for something dark and painful.

      • Veratta Pegram-Floyd

        “…sadly in many minority communities there is less stigma attached to being an addict than having mental illness…”

        This is a very powerful statement. There is less stigma attached to being an addict because being an addict is not always equated with mental illness. However, for those of us who know the signs and symptoms of substance abuse and/or mental illness, we know that being an addict can be a cover for self-medicating an unknown (and therefore undiagnosed) mental illness.

      • Veratta Pegram-Floyd

        “…sadly in many minority communities there is less stigma attached to being an addict than having mental illness…”

        This is a very powerful statement. There is less stigma attached to being an addict because being an addict is not always equated with mental illness. However, for those of us who know the signs and symptoms of substance abuse and/or mental illness, we know that being an addict can be a cover for self-medicating an unknown (and therefore undiagnosed) mental illness.

    • Destiny

      Valid points and I do so agree. However, I too was once a victim of suicidal thoughts and acted upon them. Through prayer and someone else praying for me, I survived. You are right black people do suffer in silence and we need to realize that God puts these medical professionals in place so we can utilize them as such. I have also had two family members that did not survive and suffered in silence. Suicide in our community is an epidemic and needs to be addressed very frankly.

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