Besides all of that, there was the issue of finances. When I first went natural I didn’t have any real bills (besides student loans) and my money was my own. After getting married and trying to save for my child, I had to cut down on certain luxuries, so paying for my Miss Jessie’s went out the window. I’m pretty sure that I could have found a cheaper substitute, but honestly, I didn’t feel like finding it (it took me long enough to find Miss Jessies!). I was tired, with swollen ankles, and my car was beginning to put-put out because of the excessive driving, and I was experiencing horrible butt cramps! (Pregnancy hurts, okay?) My life was doing all types of too much, in every essence of the words. Just too much.
Whenever I looked in the mirror, I would see my hair and would begin to remember fondly of the times that all I had to do was to buy a $9 relaxer, some $4 olive oil for moisturizer, then just wrap my hair. At the most, I would flat iron my hair once, and then it would stay that way for the whole week. So to help myself deal, I began to simplify things. I took my husband to get his license, I took a leave of absence from book editing, and I gave myself a relaxer.
Honestly, I don’t fully regret it. I do miss my natural hair, but relapsing to the creamy crack was something that was easy for me to do. I still love natural hair, and feel very compelled to tell women with natural hair how beautiful it is and how I admire it. But at the moment, I live vicariously through them, while continuously giving myself touch ups for my relaxed hair. Now that i’m adjusting more to my new position as a mother and working woman, I do think about going back natural. But until then, the creamy crack will have to do.
Are you natural, or relaxed? Which one is easier for you to maintain? Let’s tweet about it @kkoger.